When things fell apart

Things suddenly fell apart,
I never knew that it will be this hard.
You're one of the best that I ever had,
But I'd been always bad.

I don't know why,
But I guess I have to say goodbye.
I know it will be hard,
But let's leave everything to God.

You'd been always the best for me
But I'm always the worst.
You have given everything,
In return I could give nothing.

Sorry if we have to end this way,
I really don't know what and how to say.
I'm not saying that I didn't want to stay
I really feared the coming of this day.